On July 9, 2021, I had bariatric bypass surgery. It was not a hard decision after I saw pictures of myself I realized my Primary Doctor was right I needed to see a surgeon. I was having heart problems, taking blood pressure medicine, and cholesterol pills, and I was pre-diabetic. He told me if I didn't go, I could die. I was very overweight OBESE. No one knew what was happening on the inside. People are polite by saying you look fine. After a few scares (one being sent to the hospital by ambulance from my doctor's office because my blood pressure was so high, he thought I was having a stroke) but it still didn't help. I was trying different diets, and eating healthier foods. I would lose a few pounds, but I was still overweight. My highest weight was 205 and I am 5'1". I was scared. Scared to be a burden on my husband. Scared of being sick and causing permanent damage to my body. In April 2021, I made my appointment with the surgeon. I was definitely a candidate for bariatric bypass surgery.
This was me at 205 pounds. I was not feeling well. Breathing had become difficult just walking from one room to another. I was always tired and did not feel well. I also was very depressed as I have mentioned before I am very good at covering up my sadness when I am around people. There were days when I just wanted to give up. I was so embarrassed by how heavy I was. What made it worse, someone showed my mother my picture on Facebook, and she called me to say she was embarrassed to say that I was her daughter. She asked how I could let myself get so heavy and that she did not want to see me until I had lost weight because she would not want to introduce me to any of her friends. Now as hurt as I was after our conversation I sat and thought about it for a while and realized my mother was right (not about her not wanting to admit I was her daughter that part was true and that is how my mother is). I was heavy and I was an embarrassment to my whole family. I even felt bad for my husband for having such a large wife. Somehow the eating continued. I enjoyed eating, but it was also a way to continue to self-sabotage myself. I wasn't good enough and to put it right out there again I didn't care what happened to me. I remember growing up I had asthma and the scary times when I could not breathe and even the machine in my room was not enough to help. My Mother would rush me to the emergency room. I realized that my doctor was right If I didn't get myself under control my health issues would only get worse, and I was putting myself in danger.
This is me in February 2022 weighing in at 125 pounds. Eighty pounds lost and I have promised myself that I will never look for it.
I had not worn or even owned a pair of jeans for over 15 years.
I am working to get to my goal weight.
I thank God every day that I am not where I was a year ago.
This is me now August 2022.
I am pleased to introduce you to the new Rose Mary at my goal weight of 115. Proud now to be with my husband.
I am able to breathe and I have so much energy.
I am blessed to have my health and ask God every day to help me stay on the right path to a healthy life.
I am also grateful that I am off all my medications. The only pills I take now are a bariatric vitamin and calcium.
This was, is, and will continue to be a lifetime commitment but one thing I know for sure:
"I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me" Phillipians 4: 13
I want to encourage anyone out there who is considering weight loss surgery to believe in themselves. You have gotten yourself into this situation and you will get yourself out. This is not an easy process or as some people think a quick fix but I can tell you that it is a true Blessing and the beginning of the New, Beautiful, and Healthy You!
If I can give you another piece of advice which I learned the hard way. Do not tell a lot of people when considering having the surgery. I had a lot of negativity from people saying
"That's the easy way out"
"Why can't you do it on your own with diets?"
"You aren't that heavy"
I know that they mean well but you do not need to be second-guessing why you made this decision. I made the decision because I wanted to live and be healthy.
I am not embarrassed to tell people after the fact but I truly advise to only tell people who you need to tell, people that will be 100 percent supportive with no judgment.
This is a giant decision and very psychological. Nothing about this is the easy way out and if you could do it with diets you wouldn't be considering this surgery.
This is a lifetime commitment. You must continue to eat right, exercise, and filter your ears and mind to the negativity you may still hear from yourself and others.
I would also like to give you a few more things to consider. Continue to see a Dietician. I see my Dietician once a month. Get into a support group. Encourage others who are considering having or have had weight loss surgery. Surround yourself with positive people.
Remember this is a lifetime commitment. Just because you have lost weight does NOT mean that you can eat anything you want and never gain the weight back. I continue to make the commitment every day to never put myself into an unhealthy lifestyle again. I watch what I eat, weigh myself every day, exercise three times a week on my total gym, journal, and thank the good Lord for putting the Doctors, dieticians, and friends in my path and giving me the strength to continue on this wonderful path of a healthy and beautiful life.